Started to move Dad out of his place. It is looking we eventually have to start to think about finding him senior home care in Long Island, some nurse or something similar who can come to the house and help us take care of him. For now we think that we are going to be okay. He still gets around pretty fair, the probably is that he has gotten where he is very forgetful. So we are sort of reluctant to leave him on his own for any length of time. We are afraid that he might be developing Alzheimer’s disease or some other form of dementia. That is probably about the thing that scares me more than anything, well in general I am really scared of having some medical issue that turned me in to a long term liability to the rest of the family. If you are a man you are supposed to take care of the family, earn money to put food on the table, put clothes on their backs and keep a roof over their heads.
When you get like this it is the opposite and you become worse than a child, because a child grows up and stops being a child. At some point it is supposed to be able to fend for it’s own self. If you are mentally or physically incapacitated that is going to be for the rest of your life. I always wonder what is going on with in the mind of a person who has dementia as well. Is it something chemical or has the brain broken down in some physical way. It is not like I really understand anything about the chemistry or the physiology of the brain, so if someone could explain it to me I might not grasp it.